WEAKLING

 

 

I’m crazy

I’m going crazy

Something is wrong with me and I don’t know wat 

Every hormone in me keep switching 

Never been angry dis long it’s been 2 days

I just seem uncomfortable with everything I have always tolerated 

Tempted with something I would say no to

Sad about everything I’ve lost

Pressured about everything I have to become 

Craving for comforts I was patient about

Starving and rejecting meals I love

Pouring tears I would hold back unceasingly 

Eureka! I’m weak

I’ve always been a weak ass

Saying and visioning courage I would barely act on

Mind speaking words I should lash out on her

Writing ideas I have no fucking idea where I would get the capital from !!

Words

Words are all I have 

I speak to them

I write dem

creating and pairing them with my screens

Matching dem on papers

Yet..

Actions..

Actions are wat I lack

I excuse my fear for them with lame reasons viz:

Being patient 

Allow peace to reign 

Vegence is for God

He’s still ur father 

U r a Christian 

U r not like the world u know it’s wrong ...

U know wat..

I might be okay after all

The anger might be normal 

Maybe this is how normal ppl should behave 

Besides..

WRONG might be right

RIGHT might be wrong 

It’s been long  I spoke to u

But u should be all seeing right..

U read hearts cuz u created dem

I’m weak

I can’t speak to you right now 

Feed on d pages of my heart 

Take this cup will u?..

                           

   Xandria...

                 Ehmrys... 

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